Since it came out, Restoration has been my favorite movie. I’m sure it has something to do with where I was in my own life when I first saw it and perhaps, the familiarity that came from watching it countless times because it was the only VHS I owned (yep, I said VHS)… nonetheless, I easily count it as my favorite movie, and most likely always will. The story resonates with my soul.

If you’re going to watch it for the first time I suspect you may want to do so with a bit of grace, but if you can do that, I believe you might see the beauty in it that I see.

In this clip, The director, Michael Hoffman says, “The road that Merivel travels in this movie, from excess to simplicity.. I think, has a lot to do with a kind of journey an awful lot of people are involved in today.” and though that was 1995, this is true of my life today. I am moving from a life of excess to one of simplicity.

The story gives me hope that we can come full circle into who we were always meant to be. Though we may spend years, decades even, in a foolish cloud of longing, reaching for things that dont fulfill us and yes, sometimes being horribly selfish and unwise, the journey is necessary for growth. And finally, finally… we will come to the place where we will be, at last, awake. It’s the hope of personal restoration itself that I’ve always loved the film for.

I have been going through something of a quarter life…. what..? … crisis?  Crisis is what I want to say.. a quarter life crisis… only …. it’s much more of an awakening.

It’s been a journey, that’s for sure and I’m not through it yet.  I’ve been wanting to write about it here but was unsure how to bridge the gap.  And if I’m being honest, I’ve been a little bit afraid too.  But I’m not interested in living in fear.. I am not interested in a life of fear.

For the most part, I dont get too personal on my blog, but as other  professional things take shape (exciting) I’m re-purposing this blog for the things closer to my heart.  I long to connect to people who have had some experience with some of the issues I want to talk about.  I hope you’ll connect with me!

Rest assured that there will be plenty of fun stuff too! I know most of you are here because you enjoy my art and the printables (thank you!)  I’ll still have plenty of that as well.  Creating, after-all is one of the things I can’t not do, and sharing it brings me sincere joy!

I’m understanding the significance of what has happened to me and of who I am .. as well as the insignificance of it all, at once.